week 25 I have Bronchitis Again

Sept 14th upper body. Good Upper body, Feel myself getting stronger. Coughing alot

Sept 15th Cardio. Did really good with Cardio. Jon said I was 3 seconds away from 1.27. I feel I wan to break that. Coughed my brains out after gym, had to pull over I was coughing so bad.Co-workers are getting annoyed at my coughing.

Sept 16th Lower body. Oh my favorite thing lunges. Oh how they hurt. Went to doctor this afternoon to confirm I have bronchitis again. The doctor was happy at amy weight loss. I told him I coughed real bad after the gym, he said that is exercise induced bronchial asthma, so he gave a script for an inhaler, anti biotic and cough syrup again. I made up my mind I would stay home Friday and rest. My co-workers will appreciate it, as my coughing had irritated the crap out of them.

Sept 17th Cardio Friday. Lost 1.5 pounds. Stayed home sick. Got a good nights rest but couldn't stay away from gym...wanted to break my time...and I did. I went later 7:30 then coughed my brains out, then sat in my pj's all day and watched girlie movies. Went to bed both friday and Saturday night early, to be rested up for nascar races on Sunday in New Hampshire

Week 24 Good week at Gym

Week Sept. 6-9 I had a very good week at gym. Jon real pushed the weights cause my legs and arms were sore.

Cardio both days were very good. No anxiety at all...yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

Weigh in....knew it was not going to be another 5 pounds...It was a long weekend last weekend with picnics and eating thru Monday. Gained 1/2 pound but gained 1.9 pounds of muscle and lost fat...so that is good. Will do better next week with eating.

Week 23....Good Week! My clothes are too big

This has been a sweltering week of heat with the whole week being in the nineties, plus starting to teach again, at a different time 5-7......very good that I get home at a better time, but learned I need to plan my meals better because when I get home at 7:30 I have no desire to cook.

Tues. Aug 31, Upper body. An hour of pushing it, more weight, I know cause of the pain I feel drying my hair everyday.

Wed. Sept 1 Cardio....woke up, trying to come up with a game plan to gain my confidence back from my mishap last week.....I am a mental case, stressin out over cardio. I told Jon, i thought i needed to go backwards a little to get my confidence back and he said " Go back, no way" then proceeded to give me a a great pep talk, I a few tears of fear fell over my ridiculous anxiety, but he did say something that made me feel completely great and not afraid of failing. I did cardio, without going backwards and finished, had total bladder control and felt great after. Told him he can't give up on me even though I am nuts.

Teaching Monday and Wed has caused me to not eat a full balanced dinner, for the record....I ate, but not too much.

Thursday. Sept 2 lower body. Squats, oh my favorite.....hurt, but happy that I used to hate sit ups more but now trying to push myself to more than 24 in my superset, not much, 30, but I a not dying at 24.

Friday. Sept 3rd. Weigh in day. I knew being the week in the month that it is the week after "that time of the month" I would have a good weigh in...but never expected 5.5 pounds ...wow....47 pounds total now....I was thrilled. I did not push myself to lose that much at all. Was not my plan. I knew it would be like 3 pounds to make up for last week, but not 5.5, and my lean body mass read did show my lack of eating properly, caused me to lose lean muscle mass.....I will be planning my weeks better with the food now that school has started....always have cooked chicken in the frig at night....and eat before i leave work for school.

Won the weight loss competition among some coworkers, I start again with just 1 friend co-worker next week, clean slate. We will help each other! But for now some extra cash for the weekend! Hurricane Earl in for the night.

Week 22 It's behind Me Now

Made the decision to go another 8 weeks...like I am really going to stop now, after making so much progress. I am making this week to be worse than it is. Now that's its gone and done with. I did great with my weight days upper and lower, Wednesday July 25th Cardio I made it thru the whole thing, it was hard.....felt like I had to pee right when a got off treadmill, a strange urge that I have not experienced. I was able to make it to ladies room ok on Wed.

Survived weights on Thursday....very tired at work on Thursday, of course cause its that 'special time" of the month, Oh how us woman just love that time and seems to get worse as I get older, can't imagine menopause...that will suck, cause I think that isn't just for 1 week.

Friday, July 27th felt Lousy went and did Cardio and in my last 30 seconds, I got all dizzy and I swear I really thought I was going to fall off...I grabbed the bars, Jon kept the machine running....for I was in my last 30 seconds....Jon said he didn't change the numbers at all but they felt sooo much harder, again, wasn't feeling myself. I jump off treadmill and I had absolutely no bladder control at all.....

It was awful, embarrassing, and I couldn't really move, afraid to move, just stood there with my legs together.....thank God I hardly had any water, less than a cup. Made it to the ladies room, went home called out sick. I was so tired I did a work out, had a protein shake, took a shower and once my head hit the pillow, I fell instantly back to sleep and I made myself get up at 9:30. I am usually energized after a workout not exhausted....again we are chalking it up to the "special week" of the month. I gained muscle and lost fat, so I am doing well in that dept.

Hopefully the bladder issue is isolated as it never happened before, and hopefully won't again. Other have told me that in running or jumping they have had the same issue at times.

End of week 21 (disappointed myself)

I know I am going to that time of the month when I want to be locked in a closet, but still felt good about this week.

Tues Aug 17 upper body. Good upper Body, heavier weights, getting stronger

Wed Aug 18th Cardio. Although very nervous, and it being tough I made it through and was pleased. Beating my distance. On the board 1.26 :)

Thursday Aug 19 Lower body. Started a whole new set of lower body...I enjoy the change, although back to lunges which are so friggin hard, i know I will be sore

Friday Aug 20. Cardio. Gained 2 pounds of muscle. Its working! I got myself all pumped up for today, ready, no complaining, just gonna do it, have a half day of work, a great weekend planned, nothing can stop me....then with 5 minutes left in cardio the weak person inside of me took over and I jumped off...what a disappointment. the drive home sucked in my head...Jon was upset, i am upset. I know I could have finished. Won't happen again, this feeling now sucks more that the feeling i have that makes me want to jump off in the first place.

The new exercise that i am doing for my calfs now left a bruise the size of the pad on my thighs...must talk to Jon to see if we can do something different. Must look up why I bruise so easy...I have been that way my whole life. I have bruises all over my legs

End of week 20

Why do I lack so much confidence in myself when it comes to doing it.....again I have made such strides in cardio, I have exceeded where i wanted to be and yet I am still coming close to (but not) jumping off the damn treadmill with minutes left...Am I insane? I have faith in Jon, who clearly knows I can do it....is it just easier to fail than succeed? Not saying I will fail or have failed, but the lack of my believing in myself is still deep inside probably screaming to get out, just been locked up for so long.

Will write more later, but really did have a great week.

Tues Aug 10th upper body. Good upper body. feel great

Wednesday Aug 11 Cardio. Really pushed it, and I accidently saw me past the 1.25 mark...I was thrilled, but not seeing the numbers really help me

Thurs Aug12 Lower body. Jon went over how I have progressed from when I started...the weights really have changed, i am sooo much stronger

Friday Aug 13 Cardio. It was very hard to stay on, but I did with success and felt great about it. So glad I have the weekend now to rest my muscles. Jon is pushing me to exceed all my expectations

Great week (end of week 19)

had a great weekend. Bike road on Saturday and Monday night. Sat was 6.5 and monday it wad 7 miles. Took look at the unfinished trail, it will be nice when done. Went to beach. had pizza on Saturday and pasta on sunday, but other then those 2 foods and some alcohol, i did fine. Oh Thai on Fri night.

8/3 Tues. upper body. Felt good to push it today. getting more strength

8/4 Wed cardio. Brought my number blocker and Jon really pushed me, but it felt good, i survived. I felt strong, I really trust he he knows what he is doing. I did my first set of jogging 2 minutes, then a run for a minute...eventually all 4 sets in my cardio I have to get up..i couldn't keep just doing 2 minutes of a fast jog and a run. I made it. Wonder what Fri will bring. Jon wouldn't tell me my time or put on board. I did better, he said, doesn't wan to spook me

Yesterday was so busy at work. I had a job due then we went ot with my boss's, boss's boss, from corporate office, i couldn't make the first hour with her in question and answer time but she took us bowling. She go us Pizza, but i didn't eat any, and bowling didn't come back to me as I thought it would. I used to be an awesome bowler wit good form. I was dropping the ball, not bending dow enough and my legs were killing me after.

8/5 Thurs lower body. Good lower body. Still hate sit ups

8/6 Friday cardio weigh in day. I needed a good weigh in...4.5 pounds lost..yeah. Thrilled, so total lost now is 41.5 pounds. Cardio I was a little nervous. He said I was gonna be pushed more than Wed. and I was, I made it, still don't know my distance, he wouldn't tell me...just knew it was up. We did the first set with 2 jogs and a run and ended the same way, so i know my distance was further! I am better off not knowing...the numbers scare me...I am a freak. Now to enjoy the weekend